uncertainty

Looking toward the future
With a frightened eye
Staring down uncertainty
Trying to pass the quiet nights
Without letting my mind go ashtray
There are too many thoughts
I cant bear to think
Too many possibilities
I don’t have the courage to consider
Just blinded by dreams gone away
Living in past
Checkered with defeats
And
Cradling ideals long
Sine lost
f-o-r-g-o-t-t-e-n
no journey has gone
..the direction I planned
No spirit has moved
…at the place I wanted
So now, I sit here
Completely out of dreams
Pining for what should I have been
But never will be…
Frightened by
Possibilities..
Turned into destinies
And clinging on to improbable hope
Slipping through my fingers
Uncertain
About everything
Destined….
For nothing
but what I despise
theres no glorious future
…
Theres no happy end
…
Just a game of self deceit….
…
That…
…
Never quiete fulfills…